Saying goodbye

I feel we can live together and share anything about sad or happy. But, sometimes I feel know we have a distance. Maybe, because you a good man and I’m not good woman or we just have a good to be a friend.

I don’t know.

Now, I just want to run away from you. I just want to have another option, not only you, but other man.
It’s so sad to say goodbye with you. Really sad to finished our chat. Really bored everyday without you. I love you but I can’t lose my friend like you. You not just friend, but soulmate for me.
Allah, can I and he live together? If I’m not good woman, can he always beside me? I’m sorry to much hope 😔

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Maybe, I love you

Do you know my feeling with you?

You can’t know anything, because you just look me like your another friend. But, in my eyes you not just friend, you my special friend for me.

I don’t know when my feeling like that. So difficult to say “I love you” . Now, i just want to run away to forgeted my feeling to you. Just run away I can do it.

Haruskah aku keluar dari persembunyian?

Hai, malam ini aku ingin bercerita dengan kalian. Aku akan menuliskan ini dalam bahasa.

Besok adalah hari pernikahan salah satu teman sekolah dasar kita. Sebenarnya sudah ada satu orang yang terlebih dahulu menikah. Dan dia masih saudaramu, Syis. Tapi aku tidak ingin membahas mengenai dia, aku akan membahas mengenai pernikahan besok.

Aku tidak mengerti kenapa hari esok sungguh penting, walaupun itu bukan hari yang penting secara pribadi buatku. Tapi kau tahu, dia pernah menjadi pacarmu kan? Aku pernah tahu mengenai gosip itu. Oke kembali kenapa hari esok penting. Hmm sebenarnya kau harus tahu bahwa semenjak kepergianmu, aku mencoba lari dari semua hal tentangmu termasuk seluruh teman teman sekolah kita.

Kau pasti bertanya kenapa?

Karena sulit buat ku hidup dimana tidak ada kau disana. Sulit buatku berdiam di daerah yang kau sudah tidak ada. Sulit untuk ku bertemu teman yang membahas kepergianmu.

Sekarang aku tidak menyalahkan takdirmu. Hanya saja, andai mereka menganggap aku bukan wanita gila yang patah hati akibat kau mati, pasti aku bisa nyaman berada disekitar mereka. Kau tahu rasanya sulit, bahkan hanya untuk duduk 5 menit didekat mereka, berdiri bersejajar di kendaraan umum dekat mereka tapi dengan tatapan yang sama “kasian”.

Aku benci setiap orang yang mengkasihani cerita cintaku yang sad ending bukan, tetapi sad love. Aku tidak pernah menyesal mencintaimu, bahkan jika ada pintu untuk kembali ke masa lampau, aku akan tetap jatuh cinta padamu, dan aku akan tetap menyimpanmu dalam hatiku.

Aku tidak pernah menyesal telah mencintaimu..

Walau takdir tidak pernah berpihak kepadaku.

 

 

Aku merindukanmu

Haruskah aku keluar dari persembunyianku esok ?

FAMILY VACATION part 2

Hai hai…

Long time no see you in my blog.

This month is very busy for me, last week I went to Ziarah Walisongo, Bali and Lombok for 8 days. It’s so long day far away from my home. Not pure holiday, because I little make research about how to make an itinerary about Ziarah Walisongo, Bali and of course in Lombok. Okay, I’ll tell about my experience about the eight precious day but in the next post. So, I’ll continue about my family vacation part 2.

In the last post, I tell about Suwuk Beach, right?. So, I”ll tell about the next day.

The next day, my cousin Kana and I have a plan going to Dieng Plateu in Wonosobo. But my Mom have a another place going in the day. My mom want to go to Tebing Breksi in Jogjakarta.  So, we are going to Tebing Breksi.

The distance from my Grandma’s home to Tebing Breksi about 160 km and approximately in 5 hours. It’s so far away. We are going to Jogja around 9 o’clock and arrive in Breksi at 4 o’clock. Very long time because in there have some traffic on the road, because it is Eid Holiday so many peoples in Center Java and Jogja.

This is first time I come to Breksi, so I’m very excited about that. Wait, I will share photos of Tebing Breksi. This is it.

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Tebing Breksi, Prambanan, Daerah Istimewa Jogjakarta

Yeaaaay, finally I’m in Breksi. Breksi very popular in instagram lately, and it make me curious about Breksi. For my opinion, Breksi is a cliff with beautiful sculpture, and the view in there is so fantastic. And of course have a good place to selfie and wefie. You must going to Tebing Breksi if you come to Jogjakarta, Indonesia.

Oh my god, I’m forget to tell about my cousin hahaha.. My cousin no angry or sad because we’re not going to Dieng. He doesn’t know direction to Dieng so it’s okay ahahaha. He’s so much fun in there. We have many photos in there, and I’ll share wefie photo.

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Wefie in Tebing Breksi

That’s a funny wefie, I’m sorry about my not control face hahaha, oh my god look Kana what’s that expresion? so full charming baby lol. That is my family.

We have in Breksi untill night and back to Grandma’s home in midnight till early morning. In the next day, we’re not going in anywhere because very tired about two wonderfull days. So, we just in home, relaxing in the bed and just talk and laugh with our family in grandma’s home.

And the day after tomorrow, we’re back to Jakarta because we have still work in there. Actually so sad to say goodbye with spesial cousin my Kana, but what can we do about it. I’m promise in the next holiday we will go to another place with wonderfull and amazing view.

Holiday is over, back to reality..

Goodbye Kana, and see you soon to the next holiday baby.

FAMILY VACATION

Goodnight everybody

This is Hana. I want to tell with you about my family vacation in Lebaran’s holiday last month. Me, mom, dad and my aunty go to my Mbah’s home at Sumpiuh. You know Sumpiuh guys?  Sumpiuh is located in distric of Banyumas in Center Java. So, if you guys go to Yogyakarta, you will pass through of Sumpiuh. Okay, I’m sorry I can’t tell many about Sumpiuh, but I’ ll tell about my family vacation.

In the first day, when I already in my Mbah’s home. My cousin and I have some planned to go to beach. It’s a Suwuk Beach. Suwuk Beach located in Kebumen. Actually, I have been away go to Suwuk Beach when Miss Kiki’ s wedding in April. So, this is my second time go to Suwuk. In my first time, Suwuk beach very quiet. But, when this time I back to Suwuk, oh my god.. I’m very shock with many people on the beach, so crowded. That situation make me feel really uncomfortable, but I saw my cousin so much fun to be there. Oh yeah, I’m forget to introduce who is he my cousin, so his name is Kana. Yeah Kana is my cousin name, Hana is my name and my username in this website is Hanakana. Why I’m use his name? hmm… it’s secret hahahaha.. I’ll explain my reason in the next post, okay.

I’ll continue to tell about our activity in Suwuk Beach. The weather in the day is so hot, you know condition in 12 o ‘clock right? so, that’s hot. But, my cousin really fun play with waves. He’s rolling bolster in the beach, and it’s really annoying to see that because I’m overheating in there.  Wait a minute, I’ll share his photos.

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Kana at Suwuk Beach

See… how much fun his face hahahaha really love and annoying to see it.

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Me take refuge in a hat

It’s so different mood, me so fake smile.

okay, let’s continue the story. The conclusion in Suwuk beach is so much fun even though is so hot but it’s okay. I’m really happy too, same with my cousin and all of my family.